I care

I Care

I swear, I care

And don't want you 

To go anywhere!

During these four years

Got to know you

And it's clear

You're getting worse.

This illness

Is a fucking curse.

But we laugh and joke

Or I mop up your tears

When those stupid folk

Stare, it isn't fair

When they speak over you

When it’s not their affair.

Often, you make me mad

And count to ten

And realise this is so sad.

And all your twenty doses

I've got to learn

With all their dosage

To sort your medication-

To trust me

Now you've losing concentration.

They help you move

And for a while,

Improve.

I hold your hand

Through every blood test

And try to understand.

You exasperate me!

You exhaust me

Mentally and physically!

You change my music station

While on a ride out

Through the duration!

And I’m such a dick!

This is the fourth time

I’ve run over your walking stick!

You laugh at the idiocy

As the hospital laughs and redelivers;

And neither takes it seriously!

We sing to songs

Strangle them

But still sing-along!

I turn things on their head

To make you laugh

Ensure you're well-fed.

You lean on me

In every way

Make your cups of tea.

I try to act happy

Make you giggle

When you're feeling crappy.

And every weekday

A warm drink waits for me

Even if you're in dismay.

And you look after me

In your own way

And you’d disagree.

I hope in some way

I’ve made a difference

As your life ebbs away.

What you don't know

Is I'll be there until the end

Don't want you to go.

Linda for Sue

Feel so humble

July 2020