Undecided!

Oh the dramatics!


Undecided!

I'm running through my feelings
Working side by side in thoughts;
Struggled with my senses;
My emotions I have fought.
I've run around in circles,
Got lost in a sphere
It’s all getting two dimensional
And not exactly clear!

Analysed my issues
Thinking about all this
Reached for the box of tissues
But not quite got the gist.
Tried to iron out uncertainties
Some reservations straightened out
But they still remain all jumbled,
Is it all about just nowt?

So profoundly confused,
Lost in an entire maze;
Am getting more perplexed
At this labyrinth of faze.
Feel so indecisive,
Vulnerable and easily lead
Mentality no longer what it was
Within my tortured head.

My thinking is too crowded,
My views are getting clouded,
My inner voice is shrouded;
It's all become confounded.
My line of thought is being hounded
And now it’s totally unfounded.

Swimming through enigmas,
There's too much mystery;
Am drowning in bewilderment -
What is happening to me?
My psyche is complicated -
Completely in a muddle,
My beliefs are saturated
With endless mindless struggles.

Need some basic answers,
Straightforward fundamentals;
Want some solid ground -
Not messy temperamentals.
Just want things more direct -
All in Black and White!
After another sleepless night
Want to see more morning light.

This time consuming energy
Has begun to take control of me,
Just want to turn around and flee!
Was not anticipating
My hormones to be raging
Feel I have lost the plot;
These problems are not solved -
Do I take this HRT –
This hormone therapy
Or do I simply not?

Copyright Linda Lawrence
13th October 2008