Alone

Gave to Dave Richie for a song

Alone

You may be in a relationship but very much alone.

You may be offered some support but always on your own.

Wondering why you feel so ill with everything that’s fraught.

You go to bed so early with nothing but your thoughts.

Fed up with constant battles and the point you’re trying to make.
Tired of trying to prove you’re right till your heart begins to ache.

Doing everything yourself and unable to communicate

And even problems that are simple it leaves you in a state.

You ask the same old question and to the depth of your soul

Wonder why you are here to act out the same old role.

Struggling once more and yet time and time again

Its déjà vu and the answer to you is like a closed chain.

Once in a blue moon you need the benefit of the doubt

Instead of keep arguing, repeating, going over and to shout!
So exhausted you’ve become almost to the point of no return,
To ask for a little understanding but once again you’re spurned.

Chorus: Rejected dejected just want to be respected,

     Want your strong shoulders and need to be protected.

You want a magic wand to wave and to cast a spell

Go back to the time when you both got on so well

All you want to do now is hide right in your shell

Now how it feels when we argue, you want me to go to hell

You try to help and aide all the minor problems that you get

But always feel rejected and just get more and more upset.

It isn’t worth the time you’ve taken to try and work things through

Nobody’s dying, it’s just me crying and it’s all because of you.

Copyright Linda Lawrence

24^th July2019

Lads' holiday

Lads' holiday

Eat me eggs and bacon
Wash it down with beer
At the airport, down another -
This is why I'm here!

Am here with all the lads -
We're having a holiday!
Somewhere warmer than here
Hope there's no delays.

Had another pint
While watching information.
Cannot properly focus
Cannot read location.

Not sure where I'm going,
Not sure if I've been!
Feels like I'm going to puke,
Looking a bit green.

Guts now completely empty;
Bought a book to read;
Don't intend to read it -
Didn't really need it.

Plenty of sex on the beach;
Another coctail or three
In a hotel with a 2-star rating
That's a mile or so from the sea.

I've been drinking since sunrise
Keeping up with all my mates
Following what they do
Watching them demonstrate!

Turning all nocturnal
Lie in bed all day
Sleep off my hangover
For the disco near the quay.

Chat up all the birds
Feeling a bit pissed!
Chuck up up in the loo
Even though I've just been kissed.

Far away from home
Soaking up the sun;
Never feeling quite myself
Even though it's fun.

But as I board the plane
The crew took me aside
The've barred me from flying
Couldn't walk in a straight line....

21st June 2019
Copyright Linda Lawrence

We share their land

We share their land

Everything is different
from flowers to Bees,
to Mango trees ,
the air we breathe,
Yellow, orange Butterflies
that grace the beach,
eating off a putrid Peach.
Out of reach
the wildlife screech.
And of the Seabirds
in the air
in the sea
the coloured fish,
I stare.
A quiet nature trail;
the Monkeys' swing
from their tails.
And in the wild
a crocodile
to make me smile!
(And very nervous
for a while!)
Coloured birds
sing a perfect tune;
back to front moon .
And almost soon
the rainy monsoon.
The sea is calm,
the sea is clear;
the trees of palm.
People full of charm!
Breezy and warm
despite a storm.
And of nocturnal creatures-
we'll be awake tonight
in hot Fahrenheit.
And to our delight
the creatures in the sand
crustaceans, reptiles, rodents
feed from our hands
and a reminder
that we share their land.

Copyright Linda Lawrence
14th June 2019

Allergy

Allergy

Sneezing, wheezing
itching bitching,

Sniffing

Watery eyes

Tissue supplies

Hypersensitivity

To what fucking tree

Snotty nose

Pollen in my clothes

Stuffed up

Can't wear make up

Allergy –

It’s ghastly

Copyright Linda Lawrence
24th May 2019

Unruly

Unruly

My hair’s got a bit unruly,

Hasn’t been cut for a while,

Been left for a good few weeks

Trying to keep the style.

Spent ages trying to make it messy

With all sorts of products bought.

Tweak it this way, tweak it that -

Tried everything and fought!

Hairspray all over to get it to spike;

Wax applied and moose!

Extra sticky glue to stick it up

Swore and gave it abuse!

Used rollers overnight

Heated ones as well!

But that looked far from right

Nothing like a blonde bombshell!

Tugged it, yanked it, pulled it

Heaved it, jerked it, this and that

Everything I’ve done to it

And it’s still lying quite flat!

Straightening tongs and crimpers

As well as the latest clay;

Backcombed it to point it upwards;

Think better just sleep on it today.

Now look at it, just woken up -

My hair is just a mess!

It’s perfect now in every way

It’s how I want it more or less!

24^th May 2019

Copyright Linda Lawrence

This 'n' that!

This ‘n’ that!

Picked up mobile to call a friend,
Tho, just a quick text I had to send!

A swift turn on a word game -

Promptly put details in the domain!

Browsed the internet, see who's who;

Checked the bulletins, read them through;

Click on this for more peruse!

It's always full of recent news.

Listened to a music track;

See what's what and this and that!

Took a photo sent it abroad -

Really feeling full of awe!

Added something to the blog;

Read through emails and backlog.

Downloaded an app for maps

And sponsor a homeless cat perhaps.

Watched a video with a joke -

And passed it on to other folk.

Best look at the bank account

And who is offering good discount!

Now make that call but batteries' dead

Should have thought of that ahead!

Copyright Linda Lawrence

11th May 2019

A memory full of yesterday!

A memory full of yesterday!

Am trying to find the word that's disappeared from my head
Is it on the landing, on the stairs or on the bed?

it was festering on my tongue for a while and then it somehow fled;

Am hoping at some point today the light will soon be shed.

Went upstairs to get some thing and came down empty handed,

Climbed halfway up again only to get stranded!

Forgetting what I've already forgotten is becoming commonplace -

Something has really changed within this memory trace.

Looking everywhere for the car keys right here in my hand-

Something that a younger person wouldn't understand!

Was the medication taken today - the pills that keep me sane

And the tablets to improve all the grey stuff in my brain!

Using a mobile phone is just another complication,

Am just too slow to learn and it adds to my frustration.

Of all things that are modern, the instructions that mean nowt

Would rather live like, just what was and prefer to go without!

To turn the TV to another channel has got much too technical

Or lowering the volume with remote control has become nonsensical!

Watching the news in another continent and another tongue;

Wishing things just didn't change and wanting to be young!

The glasses are already on my head, cannot see without them

Looked for them just about everywhere almost to succumb!

 Forgot to call the cat in as I close my weary eyes

 After looking for the book I’m reading full of dodgy spies!

Recognising and remembering people and their names;

Recollect where the car was parked, going to great pains.

Putting odd things in odder places, looking low and high.

Laying out some perfect plans, perfectly awry!

So this is it! A memory full of yesterday but nothing for today;

Can never answer a simple question, not these days straightaway!

More embarrassing moments over time and my thoughts are far away,

Vague recollections of recent events now have slipped away.

Repeating a repeated word time and time and time again

Trying to remember what was said is becoming a huge strain!

Think just sleep on it and wake up all refreshed

And go through the day trying to remember not to forget!

Copyright Linda Lawrence

 11^th May 2019