Out of the blue

 Out of the blue

I said goodbye 

At the end of July 

The CAT and MRI

Could not deny.

Going to admit 

Lost a breast  

Had a biopsy

For a cancer test.

Invasive kind

A grade 2

Centimetre of ten

And out of the blue.

Must have been there 

Quite a while 

Some itching and puckering

Silent and hostile.

Thank goodness no chemo

But it spread to a gland 

Right under my armpit 

It had the upper hand.

There's been a few scares

Phycologically

Your mind takes over 

Illogically.

And all the tests 

They've given me

And further to treatment 

Radiotherapy. 

An infusion

To counteract 

Some unwanted side affects

They.ve got my back.

Now taking a drug

To keep it at bay 

My thanks to the NHS

They saved the day!

As for a protheses 

I knit my own!

The instructions I found 

A website on my phone .

If your body feels wrong 

Get it checked 

Don't leave it for long

Don't neglect.

Copyright Linda Lawrence 

November 2025

Until Dawn

 Until Dawn 

Will it be stars

Or hearts,

Or a grey night

Or black tonight?

I'm aware 

Of the cute bears

And snowflakes

Or with odd shapes.

Dots or stripes

Owls in flight.

The dogs' don't bite

It will be a good night!

Will it be yule

There are no rules!

The butterflies

In summertime

The light blue,

Choices to look through!

For every season -

That's the reason.

A warm fleece

In the colour cerise

Soft against my skin

Short on the shin.

The kind that are red

Getting ready for bed

And under the bedclothes

The type with pink bows

To support breast cancer

They've not got all the answers.

Keeping warm

Until Dawn.

Copyright Linda Lawrence

November 2025

Thanks!

 

Thanks!

 

Thanks for the baths

The laughs,

The dinners

All winners!

The wine -

Your time.

Beautiful trees;

Spray for fleas.

Great drives,

The one knife...

Warm throw

It's cold ya know.

Ouzo appreciate!

Tim - you’re great!

Reggae beat,

Venison meat,

Didn't share,

Couldn't spare….

Love you two.

 

Mum

October 2025

 

Bone of contention

 Bone of contention

 

I think about things from years ago.

The age of seventeen but still feel the blow.

Your accusing pointed finger,

Shouted and swore at me.

Just as well I was there at the time

For you to put the blame on me.

 

I did not lie -why should I?

And yet the shouting, the arguing,

I quickly said goodbye.

It caused a rift for many years

You used me as a scapegoat

I cried so many tears.

 

Your behaviour, your affair, your guilt!

Can't see this family ever rebuilt

Then years after, your did it again!

Another affair (But she loved her men)

I found it so hard to look you in the eye

Not my fault and no one asked why.

 

About this time, I could not cope

And with a glimmer of hope

Get my own life on track.

You and her behind some backs.

I wasn’t involved but was related

Speechless, felt nauseated.

 

If the truth came out your folks would break

But what would leave me Is this terrible ache.

You caused the mess I was oblivious!

Yet I'm seen as hated, feel so deflated

While your behaviour was hideous. 

Selfish and ridiculous.

 

You know I’ve been poorly,

You would have been told, surely?

Not even well wishes,  no card

No phone call, no message, has hit me so hard.

You can go to your grave with all your vile secrets

But you’ve left me with a legacy I’ll never forget.

 

With thoughts back to the mid 70s

 

Copyright Linda Lawrence 09/10/2025